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Good Lord! Finally, Peng Bro has re-access me in2 his blog haven huh..my fault neway 4 nt bein 2 blog much b4. so gues tat kinda puts him off me bein here..:(

hehe,nvm bout tat bt since im here nw, well..well… nop doubt ive got tonnes 2 tok bout. i cn go on n on 2 few pages bt dun wory, let me assure u tat aint hapenin coz in an hr’s time my babyboy’s arrivin frm Manchester n im bak 2 my other full-time job as his slave..cookin’ n so on.

alrighty, where do i get started…oh yup, studies! Uni, assignments,datelines, pressure, stress…sounds familiar?! welcum 2 da real world aye u peeps out there?!
I questioned myself a lot sumtimes. Considering ive left home since i was 15 2 NZ 2 cntinue my studies (Form 5,6.etc), many ppl tend 2 view tat kinda opportunity as a brilliant or golden 1 indeed. But 2 b honest, ive neva felt tat way. Coz’ at 15, ive been stranded in2 a situation where i wasn’t allowed 2 make a decision and not able 2 at least imagine wat is waitin 4 me in da near future. I was told by my parents briefly b4 leavin Msia n there i was, packin me bags leavin for further studies in a strange sheep-land!

Afta bein in tat community n’ sein myself as a minority again, i felt so left out. Da skoolin’ lifestyle is so laid bak tat it makes me question myself yet again tat wat r we msians doin bak in our skools?! wat’s there 2 stressed bout here coz da initial idea ova in NZ seems to me tat if u aint doin well den u try, keep tryin til u do well or bugga it…u move on, get a loan, do sumthng else wth ur life.

So big question is…is such a rather “care-free” lifestyle gd for teens? I was more on da “no” side til recently im startin to think rather differently, perhaps more westernized thinkin i reckon’.
It’s NO 2 a certain xtent but YES 2 a certain xtent as well. Parents shld stil get involve in makin sure tat we r on da rite track. But who’s da 1 2 judge whch track is right or wrong? Asian minded thinking of competitiveness 2 me is so ancient! Tat’s not part of learning n’ growin up. Absolutely not.
As an Asian myself, it stil haunts me frm time 2 time but i knw wen it cums 2 my kid i wil dealin’ wth em’ in a more relaxed way, enabling dem 2 participate in any decisions concerning demselves.

However, wen u step foot in2 Uni…life’s changed drastically…no1′s here 2 pull my ass 2 do work..total freedom. It’s nw all up 2 u 2 decide whether ur gona flip or flop. Tis is exactly da dilemma im facing at da moment. Part of me stil wantin 2 explore n’ have so much fun coz da years where we r 18-21 yrs old won’t remain 4eva. Plus, time flies. I dun wana lose all tat like many others. But there’s alwayz a risk isn’t it? well, by nw u shld b gettin my drift aye…Im in fact takin da risk n’ since im stuck here havin 2 do LAW…well, i’ll hav 2 get thru tis degree but also Im gona make sure underneath all those stress, Im gona hav fun. Party hard! Izit worth a risk? well, no1 eva knws til they try. As long as I believe Im doin my part as a diligent only daughter, Im juz hopin tat eveyrthng else shld go on smoothly. 1 yr n’ 8 more months….2 resits…wil i b able 2 overcum all of it?! :)